Cookies and Complaints
Dec. 13th, 2021 10:22 am
Image: holiday cookies
I did manage to get some baking done this weekend, but the chocolate mint cookies were ruined by my missing the baking soda. I mean, they're edible? They're just not very chewy. More like a brownie cake. I am going to try again, since they're my favorites of the season.
Otherwise, I suppose I should talk about the snow. We definitely got some. Saint Paul was very weird in that different neighborhoods had wildly different accumulation, but I would guesstimate us somewhere in between the most in the eastern suburbs (21 inches/53 cm) and the official count at the airport (12 inches/ 30.4 cm). Probably 10 (25.5 cm) inches here? It was definitely boot weather, and it was taller than my calf-high boots.
Saint Paul did its usual job of plowing, which is to say right down the middle. To be fair, while a bunch of my neighbors were out moving cars to the night-plow side of the street in the morning many others did not. Shawn and I have taken it upon ourselves to print out and deliver fliers that explain St. Paul's rules of a snow emergency, AND I spent a good portion of my morning hand-shoveling out spots so that all the neighbors could switch sides (because that's the other problem, of course, if the plow comes through, which it had, and makes giant drifts around cars, people can't park in the drifts.) For the first time ever on Saturday, I was not the loan weirdo. Once I explained what I was doing, a number of neighbors actually also pitched in. We nearly cleared the night-plow side.... of course my side of the street is day-plow and... a bunch of neighbors never moved. So, on Sunday I cleared a bunch more snow off the street, this time, by myself, with my hand shovel.
Saint Paul ought to pay me for this service.
I tell myself it's my winter workout. Plus, despite everything, I still take a certain amount of altruistic pleasure in making things nice for other people.
And, I say "despite everything," because this morning when I went out to put the recycling in the bin, I discovered one of my neighbors had dumped an entire mattress and box frame on my property, as garbage. What the actual. So, I hauled these things to the abandoned lot area and dumped them there, because I'll be damned if I get fined for someone else's garbage. Not only does this make me feel absolutely pooped on by the very neighbors I spent my free time Saturday and Sunday helping out, but also continues to fan the flames of my hatred of the Saint Paul City Council for having sold us out to the highest garbage bidder. Long story, but suffice to say, because it's really hard to get decent garbage service and we are all constricted to the same plan, no one has a good place to dump things like mattresses. Shawn told me this morning when I explained what happened, that this might not have been one of our own neighbors as people are reporting getting entire truckloads of garbage dumped into the middle of alleys because the service won't pick certain items up.
Argh.
I will say in all honesty that one of the things that the pandemic has truly damaged for me is my hope for humanity. Like, I want to still imagine that people will choose good, but I am constantly and continually bombarded by the clear message that they don't. This has been weirdly underscored for me by watching Star Trek. Shawn got us two months on Paramount +, so I've been catching up on a lot of things I never saw, like Star Trek: Lower Decks. There was a scene in the last episode of season two (I think) of Lower Decks where everyone had to work together to get a thing done, and I thought, "This is clearly fantasy" because not only did they manage it all in time, but no one complained. I mean, to be fair, the universe of Star Trek takes place in a military stratocracy, so your choice is follow orders or go to the brig/a penal colony, but still. I swear if America were a ship in the fleet, we would all already be dead because no one would ever think doing something for the good of others was ever worth doing.
And yet, I keep at it.
In fact, just today, I wrote a glowing recommendation for one of my former Loft students to an MFA program. So, I may sound kind of hopeless, but I'm really not. It's just that sometimes I despair, you know? I do think this is why I write, read, and role-play in science fiction. I can continue to imagine the future as a better place, at least in my own mind.