Reoccurring Night... Maybe I Fixed It?
Mar. 11th, 2018 09:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lydamorehouse I have a lot of reoccurring dreams. I always have. Because, I have so many, I notice changes.
This morning I woke up to the one where you've somehow missed an entire semester of college (or high school) and/or you realize you haven't been attending half your classes. Sometimes, in this dream, the stress manifests as a looming test, but I tend to have the panic of I can't find my schedule or the classrooms.
But, this morning, instead of the usual trauma, I was SOLVING the problem in my dreams. I had come in, second quarter, to realize that there were several classes I was registered for that I hadn't been attending. As is weirdly typical in this version of this dream, there were some classes that I HAD been attending. Sometimes, it's oddly specific, like, I've just somehow not been going to all my Tuesday/Thursday classes. All that was the same, but the part that was different was that there were people around and the new quarter was JUST starting. So, I asked someone (I think a guy I went to high school with, Chad,) where they got their new schedule print-out. When I went to get mine, another friend who was looking for theirs held out mine to me. I realized that I was now scheduled for a part two of a complicated art class (a non-101) that I had somehow blown off the first half of. There were other problems in my schedule, but, in my dream, I went to the art teacher and said, "How can I fix this? Can I still take the second half? Here is my portfolio," and I pointed to framed pictures on the college walls.
I don't know what they said in response, but I woke up feeling very adult-y. I had the sense, that no matter what the teacher said, even if it was "no," that I was being responsible and trying to fix the mistake.
The opposite feeling than what I usually have. A lot of times, in this dream, if it goes beyond the set-up, I continue to skip the classes I've been missing and feel panicked and guilty about it. Or worse, I try to show up, and I can't find the room and/or I'm so far behind that I just know I'm going to fail.
So this was a nice change.
What was especially noticeable was the addition of OTHER PEOPLE in the same predicament. They hadn't been skipping half their classes, but everyone was dealing with their schedules. A lot of times in this dream, I get resistance when I even just try to go get my schedule (ie, I can't find the office, no one is there, the schedules aren't available, or only available in some medium I don't have access to, etc.)
This morning I woke up to the one where you've somehow missed an entire semester of college (or high school) and/or you realize you haven't been attending half your classes. Sometimes, in this dream, the stress manifests as a looming test, but I tend to have the panic of I can't find my schedule or the classrooms.
But, this morning, instead of the usual trauma, I was SOLVING the problem in my dreams. I had come in, second quarter, to realize that there were several classes I was registered for that I hadn't been attending. As is weirdly typical in this version of this dream, there were some classes that I HAD been attending. Sometimes, it's oddly specific, like, I've just somehow not been going to all my Tuesday/Thursday classes. All that was the same, but the part that was different was that there were people around and the new quarter was JUST starting. So, I asked someone (I think a guy I went to high school with, Chad,) where they got their new schedule print-out. When I went to get mine, another friend who was looking for theirs held out mine to me. I realized that I was now scheduled for a part two of a complicated art class (a non-101) that I had somehow blown off the first half of. There were other problems in my schedule, but, in my dream, I went to the art teacher and said, "How can I fix this? Can I still take the second half? Here is my portfolio," and I pointed to framed pictures on the college walls.
I don't know what they said in response, but I woke up feeling very adult-y. I had the sense, that no matter what the teacher said, even if it was "no," that I was being responsible and trying to fix the mistake.
The opposite feeling than what I usually have. A lot of times, in this dream, if it goes beyond the set-up, I continue to skip the classes I've been missing and feel panicked and guilty about it. Or worse, I try to show up, and I can't find the room and/or I'm so far behind that I just know I'm going to fail.
So this was a nice change.
What was especially noticeable was the addition of OTHER PEOPLE in the same predicament. They hadn't been skipping half their classes, but everyone was dealing with their schedules. A lot of times in this dream, I get resistance when I even just try to go get my schedule (ie, I can't find the office, no one is there, the schedules aren't available, or only available in some medium I don't have access to, etc.)
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Date: 2018-03-11 04:35 pm (UTC)I was back in college -- I think it was the University of St. Thomas -- and for some reason I'd signed up for a Calculus class. I took Calculus in college and did not do particularly well, and I've now forgotten everything beyond the most basic sorts of Algebra, so in the dream, I was baffled at my life choice here.
I'd known I was in the class but it was not clear whether I'd been skipping it, or just paying no attention while in the classroom. We were now midway through the semester and I was completely baffled by the math we were doing. I checked into whether I could do a late-drop -- Carleton had a very generous late-drop policy but in the dream, UST didn't let you late-drop classes at all under any circumstances (I kind of doubt this is true?) -- and when that didn't pan out, resolved to have Molly tutor me in Calculus, because she's actually a pretty excellent math tutor and I was optimistic that I could scrape out a passing grade, at least.
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Date: 2018-03-11 05:24 pm (UTC)I wonder if this is a function of... doing this sort of thing now? I mean, I was always fixing problems like this in my own life, but maybe I'm suddenly more optimistic that SOMETHING can be done about schedule snafus (or I've just finally survived enough of them?) I'm not sure, but I will say I like the feeling waking up from this dream than I did when it was panicking and feeling lost. I even told Shawn this morning that I wanted another ten minutes of sleep because I was pretty sure I could fix the rest of my schedule problems.
Of course, thanks to daylight savings or whatever, I realized it was MUCH LATER than I wanted to sleep in, so I got up... :-P I hate this whole spring back bullcrap.