Reoccurring Night... Maybe I Fixed It?
Mar. 11th, 2018 09:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lydamorehouse I have a lot of reoccurring dreams. I always have. Because, I have so many, I notice changes.
This morning I woke up to the one where you've somehow missed an entire semester of college (or high school) and/or you realize you haven't been attending half your classes. Sometimes, in this dream, the stress manifests as a looming test, but I tend to have the panic of I can't find my schedule or the classrooms.
But, this morning, instead of the usual trauma, I was SOLVING the problem in my dreams. I had come in, second quarter, to realize that there were several classes I was registered for that I hadn't been attending. As is weirdly typical in this version of this dream, there were some classes that I HAD been attending. Sometimes, it's oddly specific, like, I've just somehow not been going to all my Tuesday/Thursday classes. All that was the same, but the part that was different was that there were people around and the new quarter was JUST starting. So, I asked someone (I think a guy I went to high school with, Chad,) where they got their new schedule print-out. When I went to get mine, another friend who was looking for theirs held out mine to me. I realized that I was now scheduled for a part two of a complicated art class (a non-101) that I had somehow blown off the first half of. There were other problems in my schedule, but, in my dream, I went to the art teacher and said, "How can I fix this? Can I still take the second half? Here is my portfolio," and I pointed to framed pictures on the college walls.
I don't know what they said in response, but I woke up feeling very adult-y. I had the sense, that no matter what the teacher said, even if it was "no," that I was being responsible and trying to fix the mistake.
The opposite feeling than what I usually have. A lot of times, in this dream, if it goes beyond the set-up, I continue to skip the classes I've been missing and feel panicked and guilty about it. Or worse, I try to show up, and I can't find the room and/or I'm so far behind that I just know I'm going to fail.
So this was a nice change.
What was especially noticeable was the addition of OTHER PEOPLE in the same predicament. They hadn't been skipping half their classes, but everyone was dealing with their schedules. A lot of times in this dream, I get resistance when I even just try to go get my schedule (ie, I can't find the office, no one is there, the schedules aren't available, or only available in some medium I don't have access to, etc.)
This morning I woke up to the one where you've somehow missed an entire semester of college (or high school) and/or you realize you haven't been attending half your classes. Sometimes, in this dream, the stress manifests as a looming test, but I tend to have the panic of I can't find my schedule or the classrooms.
But, this morning, instead of the usual trauma, I was SOLVING the problem in my dreams. I had come in, second quarter, to realize that there were several classes I was registered for that I hadn't been attending. As is weirdly typical in this version of this dream, there were some classes that I HAD been attending. Sometimes, it's oddly specific, like, I've just somehow not been going to all my Tuesday/Thursday classes. All that was the same, but the part that was different was that there were people around and the new quarter was JUST starting. So, I asked someone (I think a guy I went to high school with, Chad,) where they got their new schedule print-out. When I went to get mine, another friend who was looking for theirs held out mine to me. I realized that I was now scheduled for a part two of a complicated art class (a non-101) that I had somehow blown off the first half of. There were other problems in my schedule, but, in my dream, I went to the art teacher and said, "How can I fix this? Can I still take the second half? Here is my portfolio," and I pointed to framed pictures on the college walls.
I don't know what they said in response, but I woke up feeling very adult-y. I had the sense, that no matter what the teacher said, even if it was "no," that I was being responsible and trying to fix the mistake.
The opposite feeling than what I usually have. A lot of times, in this dream, if it goes beyond the set-up, I continue to skip the classes I've been missing and feel panicked and guilty about it. Or worse, I try to show up, and I can't find the room and/or I'm so far behind that I just know I'm going to fail.
So this was a nice change.
What was especially noticeable was the addition of OTHER PEOPLE in the same predicament. They hadn't been skipping half their classes, but everyone was dealing with their schedules. A lot of times in this dream, I get resistance when I even just try to go get my schedule (ie, I can't find the office, no one is there, the schedules aren't available, or only available in some medium I don't have access to, etc.)