So... Huh...

[lydamorehouse]

 As you know, Bob, I have been catching up on my medical stuff. I went in for a mammogram on Tuesday. I got a call yesterday that I was SORT of expecting, but also wasn't.

My right breast likes to develop fibrous growths. I have gone through this whole dance twice already where, either I or the mammogram find a suspicious lump. My doctors FREAK OUT, I have a lumpectomy, and everything is benign. So, I am very rarely freaked when I get a call the day after I have a mammogram with an URGENT request to have further tests done. 

However, this time they found things in my left breast that they weren't expecting. My lymph nodes were swollen (likely to do with the fact that I just got two vaccines a matter of days ago, so.... mmm, moderate concern,) and also something they called "asymmetry," which Googling tells me also could be benign, but this is a new diagnosis for me and, as such, has me Googling, for one... which, you know five minutes on Google  is a precursor to mild freaking out. 

But, like, they were calling because they wanted to schedule more tests to get more information ASAP, so I am going to United for a much more thorough look-see this up-coming Tuesday. Given my history, I am trying to tamp down on the impulse to worry, but, I mean, even when I have been the one to find the lump, there is still always a part of my hindbrain that is wondering if THIS TIME it might be cancer.

It doesn't help that my breasts have been more sensitive lately. I have been chalking that up to menopause? But, now I'm like OH FUCK WHAT IF.

So, that's kind of been me for the last 24 hours. 

Boo.

Comments

[lcohen]

i have been through a lot of this and i will hope along with you that it continues to be nothing serious.

*hugs offered*

[lydamorehouse]

I mean, I am also hopeful, and Tuesday is actually a very reasonable amount of time to wait, but I am still biting fingers because I think you just do?? Anyway, thank you.

[yhlee]

:support support:

[lydamorehouse]

Thanks!

[profiterole_reads]

I hope it's nothing serious. *hugs*

[lydamorehouse]

Thanks, I'm fairly convinced that it IS nothing? But, you know, I don't think a person can help but worry a little.

[oracne]

*fingers crossed* all is well. It's excellent you're able to get all this looked at so promptly. Good for you for doing your due diligence.

[lydamorehouse]

Yeah, thanks. Interestingly, I'm usually the one who notices the lumps... still, I am glad I went so that I can get this dealt with one way or the other.

[pameladean]

Agh, the dark side of screening tests. I'm glad you don't have to wait weeks.

I had to reschedule a mammogram after my second COVID shot back in 2020. They'd had too many false alarms with swollen lymph nodes if people had their mammograms within six weeks of the shot. I don't know how other vaccines work in that regard, or what vaccines you got, but I bet that part is just the innoculations.

Very hard not to gnaw one's fingers, absolutely.

P.

[lydamorehouse]

Yeah, Naomi K did some research into this and it's kind of all vaccines?

[rachelmanija]

Ugh, how stressful! I really hope it's nothing.

I have fibrocystic breasts and get pulled for suspicious lumps literally every time. So far they've always been nothing.

[lydamorehouse]

Yeah, that's exactly what my right breast is, so I am continuing to hope that's all this is. The disturbing part is the OTHER breast having anything going on.

[sabotabby]

I hope it turns out to be nothing. I would be freaking the fuck out, as I always do.

[lydamorehouse]

Thanks, yeah, I can't help but do a little as well.

[forests_of_fire]

-crosses fingers-

[lydamorehouse]

THANK YOU.

[anirrationalseason]

I sure hope it's nothing and your visit is uneventful!

[lydamorehouse]

OmG. Same. Thanks!

[minnehaha]

I had that experience with my first "off" mammogram, and it was acutely dismal.

Wishing you good health!

K.

[lydamorehouse]

This is my third? But, I mean, I feel like, if I am honest, a part of me always worries. I am very hopeful that this will be another one of the fibrous cysts that I just seem to develop in that right breast.

[j00j]

Here's hoping it's Real Boring.
And yeah, I've gotten as far as ultrasound on the "huh what's this bumpy situation?" journey and the waiting is not fun.

[lydamorehouse]

Yeah, and I've had two other lumpectomies and they are also not fun, but I mean, I would always rather be thorough, I guess?

[styxx374]

{{{hugs}}}

Here's to everything being a-okay on Tuesday...

[lydamorehouse]

Thanks! I will definitely post results. I am 99.9% sure it WILL BE FINE, but you know how it is.

[opakele]

I'm a 15 year breast cancer survivor.

I hear you on the freak out.

I still do it. Yes, it's been 15 years, but there are no guarantees.

Waiting for answers is the hardest part.

My empathy and best wishes.