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2024-12-13 02:00 pm

More Long Silences (Mea Culpa)

 But the good news is that Shawn's recovery is proceeding apace. 

On Wednesday, she had her two week check-in with Dr. Herseth, the knee surgeon. Just even GETTING to these appointments is kind of its own challenge. Shawn officially graduated to a cane on Monday (according to her physical therapist), so that made some of our manuevering a LITTLE easier. But, there's just a lot of rigamarole to do to get her, her cane, and the walker (which we took in case she felt unsteady) into the car and then to get her, her cane, etc., deposited at the front door of the clinic. I still have to park, get the ticket, etc., and get to her.... and I swear to god that I walk ten steps to her one. 

Regardless, we had a good appointment. We were first seen by Dr. Herseth's assistant, Ryan. Ryan removed the bandage that Shawn's been wearing since the surgery (impregnated with SILVER to repell werewolves!) This was the first time we got a good look at her scar. We both remarked at how neat the stitches were. Ryan perked up and said, "Oh, be sure to tell Dr. Herseth that." I asked, "Why? Does he not get a lot of compliments?" Ryan smirked and said, "No. He doesn't do the closing. I do!"

Ryan checked Shawn ability to straighten her leg (she was close to 1 or 2 degrees, with 0 being perfectly straight). This was up even from Monday, when the physical therapist officially measured her at 4. Then he checked her ability to bend her knee. She was at 128 degrees.  Later, when the doctor redid these tests he, being very Minnesotan, raised his eyebrows, paused, and then drawled, "Well. I was going to tell you that you should be working to make that 90 degrees, but I guess you're ready for more advanced goals." <--for my out-of-state readers: THIS is a Minnesotan doctor losing his ABSOLUTE SH*T over how good Shawn is doing, just to be clear.

On Monday, the physical therapist apparently said to Shawn, "I wouldn't go posting your flex of 128 degrees on social media... unless you want your car keyed."

Dr. Herseth said her knee looked like it was more like it was in week three or even four, not two. 

This would be cause for celebration, but Shawn is having really intense nerve pain. Dr. Herseth's only response was, "Yep. That's going to happen. It will get better." He also agreed that the only real solution for it at the moment was continued (if judicious) use of oxycodone. Shawn very much would like to get off the oxy, but, on the other hand, because of all of her other medications, she really can't take very many other drugs for pain.  She is keeping very careful track of when and how much she takes, however. I don't think she's a big risk for addiction. 

For myself, I've been very slowly getting back to normal. Mason came home on Monday. He's technically in the middle of finals week, but he only has papers due (no tests), so he decided to come home early for the holidays to help out.

With Mason around, I felt comfortable leaving Shawn last night to go to Wyrdsmiths. We are trying to meet in-person again (with limited success.) Even though a number of people insisted that in-person meetings were THE BEST and they absolutely hated how isolated they continued to feel on Zoom... we're lucky to get half the group to even show up when we host in-person. I feel pretty f*cking vindicated that I insisted that we keep our second meeting of the month on Zoom because sometimes that's the only one everyone shows up to. I mean, I get it? I am very aware that it is a pain in the butt to leave the comfort of your own home, in the dark, on a Thursday night, in the middle of winter, drive the car halfway across town, sit around for several hours and then have drive home, in the dark, in the winter. THIS WAS WHY I DIDN'T WANT TO CHANGE IN THE FIRST PLACE. I knew we'd have attrition! Yet, even though I was fully against returning in-person, I have dragged my sorry a$$ to each and every one of these in-person meetings. I find it deeply ironic that the people who insisted it was so f-ing necessary for their mental health that we do this, can't seem to show up to a single one. 

/rant

Moving on.

Tomorrow, I have not one, but two gaming sessions planned. Saturday morning, I'm gathering the Reprised Drunk Girls* for my attempt at a manor house mystery D&D session. We'll see how that goes. As noted often, I'm a novice GM and a murder mystery can be kind of complex. Though really, if my plans fail and the party quickly sees through what I think are oh-so-clever clues, the whole thing just becomes whack-a-mole and we roll for initiative, as it were. Currently, I am MOSTLY prepared. The manor house and all its clues are set (that part has been done for months), but there are still a couple of out-building maps that don't yet have potential monsters. And with this crew? I need to be prepared in case they just decide to leave the main building and wander the grounds.

Plus, I had to add an oubliette once they decided to capture the Green Knight instead of killing him. I'd complain, but honestly that's the part of GMing that I like the best. 

Then, at 7pm on Saturday, I will be a player in our ongoing Star Trek campaign. My flighty former-Chief Science Officer has accepted a promotion to XO and, frankly, I am uncertain if he is actually up to the shift to command staff. I mean, technically as Chief Science Officer he was always part of the senior staff, but XO is a whole new ballgame for Ro. I, personally, have been prepping for this by watching WWII submarine movies and practicing shouting things like "all hands on deck!" "man overboard!" and "what's the scuttlebutt?!" I'm pretty sure that's also about as much as my character knows about how to lead a starship crew, so WHAT COULD POSSIBLY GO WRONG?
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2024-11-20 10:50 am

Present, but Not Accounted For....

 Egads, I've been terrible about keeping up here.

To be fair to me, I've been deep in RPG game planning as an antidote for the continual storm of terrible news from the Worst Timeline. As many of you know, I've recently taken the plunge, moving from player to game master. I still play in plenty of games! However, much like my move from reader to writer, I have discovered that if I want a certain type of game, I might just have to run it myself.  This keeps me occupied to the point of distraction, honestly.  I do have to watch my obsessive tendencies, a bit. Given my druthers I'd almost always rather play or plan an RPG than almost anything else.

Otherwise, I had a birthday on Monday.

Shawn typically takes the day off work for my birthday, so we were able to go together to enjoy some daytime shopping, which was nice. Specifically, I wanted to go to Barnes & Noble to windowshop the manga section there and then head off for what is becoming an annual birthday event, shopping for fabric at S. R. Harris.  It doesn't make sense to catalogue the fabrics I got. Just imagine a nice pile of things that appealed to me--bright and cheery solids and interesting and unusual patterns. To be fair, the big excitment of going to S. R. Harris the dizzying array of choices and the fact that they removed biggest barrier to enjoying fabric shopping for me: waiting in line for your fabric to be cut.  You are allowed to cut your own up to four yards. This always makes me feel like a rogue, a ciminal... like I'm getting AWAY with something.

But, since today is "What Are You Reading Wednesday?" I will go ahead and bore you with the details of that shopping trip to B&N.

I only bought a couple of manga from artists that I really want to make sure to support. First, I bought the official fourth volume four of The Summer Hikaru Died.   The way I introduced this series to the readers of my manga review site was, "The Summer Hikaru Died is a poignant, deeply sublimated, barely acknowledged (but definitely queer) love story between a boy and… the monster that returned in the body of his dead friend. A new genre, perhaps? Horror Romance or Romance Horror?" It's not Chuck Tingle and company's "monster f*ckers." This is love mixed with horror--kind of a perfect coming out queer metaphor, perhaps. It's so, so good. If you want to read my spoiler-heavy review of the first volume, you can find it here: https://mangakast.wordpress.com/2024/03/06/hikaru-ga-shinda-natsu-the-summer-hikaru-died-by-mokumoku-rei/

I also picked up I Think Our Son is Gay, volume 5. I described this one to a friend as "I Think Our Son is Gay is, as you might imagine from the title, a manga about a mother coming to terms (sort of side-by-side with the son who is coming out to himself) that her kid is gay. What I love about this manga is that it reads very true to life. There are moments when the son is clearly experiencing his own homophobia and backing away from his own truth and mom is sometimes ahead of him in this area, and visa versa. Though unlike the kid, mom has a part time job in a bakery and has a friendly adult gay man as a colleague who she sometimes works up the nerve to ask questions.  Dad is sort of set up as the antagonist, but he's also literally only around every so often as he has a job that keeps him away from home for months at a time. Dad doesn't mean to not get it, but he's there to represent the usual attitudes towards gay stuff, if you know what I mean?"  Again, if you're interested in my review of the first volume, it's here: https://mangakast.wordpress.com/tag/uchi-no-musuko-wa-tabun-gay/

Otherwise, Shawn got me a couple of blank notebooks (technically "dot-lined") from one of my favorite notebook makers, Congative Surplus. IF I HAD ANY BIRTHDAY MONEY LEFT, I would totally pick-up one or two of their new "Dark Analysis" notebooks that have black paper and these insanely cool covers: https://cognitive-surplus.com/collections/dark-analysis.  Holy crap, these are cool!

Anyway. I also always request that Shawn make my absolutely favorite cake, which is a cranberry upside down cake. The only trauma with this particular recipe is that for some reason Shawn's success rate with it is 50/50. I am happy to reort that this year it was a complete success. In fact, after I finish writing this to you all, I'm going to go have one of the last pieces left for an afternoon snack!

Speaking of 50/50, it seems as though there is a possiblity this weekend's Star Trek game (where I am a player) might be cancelled. The GM, [personal profile] tallgeese is having cataract surgery (I think today!) and so isn't sure if he'll be fully recovered. First of all, I need to say that I hope his surgery goes off without a hitch and that he does feel up to it, and of course I am not so much of a monster that I won't understand if he's not feeling fully recovered. But I will admit that I'll be deeply bummed out if we end up having to cancel again. It's been awhile since we've played. So long, in fact, that I'm not entirely sure we have a December date picked out yet. I should be sure to offer to run my alternate game-- which is basically, "what if all our same characters were somehow all at Starfleet Academy the same year?" I would offer it is as an alternate relaty version of the same group of people (Think Chris Pine vs. Shatner 'verses), so no one has to roll a new character unless they really wanted to. 

Also, I should say that if you are someone who regularly gets postcards from me, I have not stopped doing those... I just got way off schedule due to All The Things. Also, I'll be honest? After the election I considered just sending everyone a black postcard with just "Help!" written on it, and then I said to myself, "Lyda. These postcards were started to cheer people up during the pandemic. No one wants a story where your time/space traveling heroine has been thrown into an abyss, never to return."  But so, when I was at the coffee shop yesterday, I spotted a local artist selling cute little greeting cards of their work and, though it is not a postcard, I will be sending those out this week just to let my postcard recievers know that I am alive and still planning to continue this project.  

I think that's everything? I hope you all are still keeping on keeping on.
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2024-09-23 04:57 pm

Happy (Somewhat Belated) Autumnal Equinox

I managed to forget my friend [personal profile] haddayr's wedding on Sunday. At least I had never RSVP'd and I had only been invited to the post-ceremony Open House. Shawn and I were supposed to be away this last week in Saint Louis, MO, for the CoSA (Council of State Archivists) meeting. As previously discussed, Shawn is being extra paranoid about infections and decided that travel was ill-advised and so the trip was cancelled. I had the invite sitting on our piano as a reminder, but I never did get around to RSVPing, so I suppose it's fine. It was such a lovely day yesterday, though. I would have liked to have given the two of them my best.  Alas!

However, it turned into a weirdly busy day, even without the missed wedding.

Shawn is gathering all the things she's going to need post-surgery. We have gotten a bath transfer bench from someone off buy nothing, but a couple of friends of ours  happened to have a daughter (I know, too young!) who had to have knee surgery who offered us a toilet set frame. So Jason and Carrie (two horror movies, as they like to remind people) came over with that and of course it wasn't just in and out. We had to stand around on the porch and chat. 

Mason, who has been incommunicado because he caught COVID immediately upon returning to campus, was feeling well enough to chat so I skipped my usual Zoom with my folks and caught up on the life of our nearly college grad. Mason is a senior this year, if you can believe it! Then, he and Shawn stayed on the line a little longer and booked him is flight back for Thanksgiving weekend. 

Then. our friend Lana came over to return a bread pan that I'd loaned her. I have two of those double-loaf French loaf pans and I went over to make bread with her one Sunday several months ago and had to leave before the bread was out of the oven. Since I have an extra pan, I told her to return it at her leisure. Lana is a regular performer in our local A Klingon Christmas Carol troupe. This year, she'll be playing The General in I'll Be Home for Kahless: The Hallmark Parody of the Season (at the Phoenix Theater in Minneapolis.) I'm thinking that this might have to be the year I finally see one of these things. 

Shawn ended up giving Lana a tour of the house. Like you do.

Oh, and in there somewhere around noon, Shawn and I also got our seasonal flu shots. So, we are now fully upgraded for the season, having gotten the newest COVID vaccine two-weeks prior. 

On top of all this, Shawn and I spent hours working on our Health Care Directives. You can not say Shawn is unprepared for this surgery. Not only do we have all this stuff, but we literally have updated our wills and Health Care Directives. 




That was all just Sunday

Saturday, Shawn and I got her rollaway bed put together for the downstairs (again, for post-surgery.) We don't have a couch, so it seemed like a good thing to own so that Shawn can rest as needed without trying to do our stairs--particularly that first week or two. Then, I think the only other things I did were RPG-related.

I spent a huge amount of time working on a possible dungeon crawl for the folks who I've gathered to play Solidarity: Drunk Girls* in the Bathroom , on the off chance they go that way.

Then, I turned around and tried to catch up on the changes in the Second Edition of the Star Trek: Adventures Role-Playing Game for the monthly game I play in. We had a shorter than usual playing session as [personal profile] bcholmes led us through the character conversion process. That went decently well for most of us, except that one of our players, [personal profile] lcohen , completely lost her species and abilities in the upgrade. So, that was no fun for her.  But, the game itself was action-packed. We said goodbye, in-game, to one of our long time members, [personal profile] jiawen , who will be very much missed -- as we immediately blew up one of our long time NPCs, due to a lack of caution. (Okay, actually, that was just the way I played him and it turns out our Chief Medical Officer has a new superpower that allowed us to make a miracle rescue.)  Due to the power vacuum created in jiawen's absence, my character has gotten a promotion that he is highly uncertain about. I'm looking forward his growing pains as he figures out how to command. This problem--feeling your way into command--feels very much like some of the stuff I loved about Saru from Star Trek: Discovery, if you watched any of that.

So, that was my weekend. How was yours. Forget any weddings???
lydamorehouse: (Bazz-B)
2024-07-31 09:50 am

WorldCON schedule and Wednesday Reading

 First of all, WorldCON sent out their final schedule today, so now I can officially announce where you can find me (virtually) in Glasgow next weekend (August 8-12).  My panels are online, unless otherwise noted:
 
  • Let Them Cook - Food in Anime (THURSDAY: 1 pm GMT/8:00 am CT) - hybrid
  • The Immersive Possibilities of Horror Audio (SATURDAY: 7pm GMT/2:00 pm CT) 
  • Everything We Love (a Little or a Lot) About Fanfiction (SATURDAY: 10pm GMT/5:00 pm CT)
  • Help, I Got Reincarnated Into a Worldcon Panel! (SUNDAY: 10pm GMT/5:00 pm CT)
  • If I'm Not Kira and You're Not Kira, Who is Writing in the Death Note? (MONDAY: 1pm GMT/8:00 am CT) --hybrid
Three out of the five panels are, as you can see, anime and manga panels, so I guess I have made myself a kind of reputation? To be fair, on the questionnaire when they ask about your specialties, I always point people to my manga review site, so... I reap what I sow, I suppose. And, I'm not really complaining! In fact, I'm thrilled! I am particularly excited to talk about Food in Anime, though, as I told the moderator, I really hope that we can mention manga, too, since that's where most of my favorites exist. 

But, so I have a couple of early mornings, both for hybrid panels. We'll see how this goes. I've had some bad luck with hybrid in the past--not being able to hear the other panelist and basically being Max Headroom in a corner and so not getting called on to participate a lot. But, I am hopeful!

As for reading, expect a lot of manga over the next week and a half!!

This week, of course, it's still been all cyberpunk, all the time. I finished a re-read of Gibson's Nueromancer, as that's the subject of our most recent podcast (which should be dropping later today or early tomorrow), and I started listening to the audiobook for Klara and The Sun by Ishiguro Kazou. I just finished watching Star Trek: Prodigy's second (current) season, and really loved it.  Every time my family looked over my shoulder while I was watching this they had some disparaging comment about the animation, but I thought it was fine. Not my favorite style, but the story made up for it, IMHO. 

In my TBR pile, I have a supposedly cyberpunk graphic novel called Twelve Percent Dread by Emily McGovern, a bunch of random manga that I will now probably dump to read later, since I need to focus on food and isekai (another world) manga. 

What about you?
lydamorehouse: use for Star Trek RPG (star trek)
2024-07-17 08:59 am

Newest Quilt

 I am just waiting for payday to send off my newest Star Trek Pride quilt. This one is for[personal profile] bcholmes, our ship's captain. The important thing to know about BC's character is that Captain Taryn is inordinately fond of our shuttle craft(s,) but one in particular, an Argo-class shuttle we call the "Grace Hopper." I wouldn't say she'd quite sacrifice our crew for this, but... there have been a few close calls. ;-) !!



close-up of the shuttle craft panels
Image: close-up of the shuttle craft panel

This was done with the heat transfer sheets and I'm both pleased with the results and also worried about how quickly they might crack or fade. So, BC! When you get this be careful it--also if it ever does become sad and cracked, we'll make arrangements for me to take it back and I will attempt to figure out how to replace that panel. I could potentially applique over it, if need be.

Here's what the whole quilt looks like:

the full quilt, a trans flag with various gaming and space-related  fabrics
Image: The whole quilt in the colors of the trans pride flag, with various gaming and science/space-related fabrics.

The flipside did not photograph very well, but it is a very fuzzy, warm flannel with an applique commander's badge from OT. What is less clear in the picture, but hopefully will be appreciated is that the edging of the quilt is this amazing early Klingon-era gold pattern. I should have taken a close-up of it before I packaged up the quilt. Alas. Maybe if you expand the photo and then enlarge one of the edges you can see how perfectly Old Trek it is.


reverse side
Image: reverse side, a commander's badge on yellow flannel.

As always these are very amateur attempts. Not everything is straight (but then neither is our crew! Ha, ha!) But I did my best and I did it all with love for all of the people I play with, the game, et al. I have one more to complete, having intentionally saved the friend I have known the longest in that group, [personal profile] jiawen (our first officer) for last. 

Speaking of this group, our GM had to cancel and I am hoping to talk my friends into letting me run a quick Star Trek: Adventures one-shot for them on Saturday. I suspect everyone has already gone on to make other plans, but I'm going to prep, anyway, since if not this time, then some other. 
lydamorehouse: use for Star Trek RPG (star trek)
2024-06-03 10:46 am
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Star Trek Game Fic

I think there might be a few people here interested in reading my latest Star Trek: Adventures RPG fic. I'm going to post the Safe for Work version here, but the NSFW option can be found here (along with all the other Sular fics) over at Archive of Our Own: https://archiveofourown.org/works/48810082/chapters/123129571 (<-- the full series, including the Vulcan smut. The direct link to the smut is embedded above.)

As usual, the fic appears under the cut.

to save scrolling fingers )
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2024-04-22 09:25 am

My Other Star Trek Game

 A pencil sketch of my Star Trek character, Melek Valerian. Often mistaken as Vulcan, he is actually mixed race (Risan and Romulan)
A pencil sketch of my Star Trek character, Melek Valerian. Often mistaken as Vulcan, he is actually mixed race (Risan and Romulan*) He wears glass, which must be an affectation, honestly. I'm pretty sure glasses are a thing of the ancient past.

Mostly, I've talked about my other other Star Trek Adventures game here, but I really want to share a couple of things from Saturday night's game that I found deeply wonderful. First of all, [personal profile] bcholmes is a fantastic GM. We were in a bit of diplomatic pickle and had been challenged to a duel by a Talarian envoy. I was ready to go down swinging, but we ended up avoiding bloodshed as our hosts (a matriarchal set of Talarian political prisoners) suggested we have a Spelling Bee. My character is among other things a linguist, so he took up the challenge and, thankfully, won it handily.

However, the whole idea of a Spelling Bee sparked a fascinating discussion about the Universal Translator.

Like how would a Spelling Bee even work? For instance, it's generally assumed that the translator works auditorily. Like, each of us hears our native language. So, for instance, if the Original Trek crew had a spelling bee and crew members were asked to spell "dog," what would they answer? Presumably, Sulu would say, "I-N-U" as "inu" is Japanese for dog, and Uhura would spell "M-B-W-A" as "mbwa" is dog is Swahili... and both of these people would pass to the next round, right? But how would you know if they got it right? The translator would translate the letters as is, presuming there is a shared lettering system.  So, how do you do this when there's a native Risan-speaker defending against Talarians? We ending up using handwavium and letting the dice decide how it all went, but I was fully ready to roleplay it, as I'd pulled up Google translate and was going to pick a random language to respond in.  

The other fun thing is that we discovered that our entire diplomatic mission was a cover for an invasion force. So, we were stuck in a very complicated situation, as if I chose (despite being the Science Officer on a DS11, I was the ranking officer) to open fire in order to stop shuttle craft from landing on the planet, this would obviously be an interstellar incident that was... well, above my paygrade to say the least. Also, we are the Federation, despite feeling an intense desire to defend the defenseless, in this case, murder isn't really supposed to ever be the answer. Plus, we were on a research mission and so it's not like we had a full warship at our command at any rate. Anyway, we had some fun trying to figure out non-violent solutions to stopping an invasion force. I tend to like to misuse the transporter system, so my first suggestion was beaming out the entire shuttlecraft crew and depositing them directly in our brig. They were on to me by the second launch so we caught them in our tractor beam. But, then we quickly ran out of options, and had to do our best on the ground to keep the political prisoners safe.  

At one point I was able to point out to the Talarians that they might want to watch themselves as Science Officers are not require to take the Kobayashi Maru.. which means not only do I have no sense of the consequences of my actions, I also have no reason to believe I CAN'T win and unwinnable situation. And that, dear Talarians, is very dangerous to you.

:-)

Anyway, it was great fun. I can't believe that anyone anywhere is letting me be the ranking officer of any away team, but here we are!

---

* So, I have this huge backstory, of course, of how this combination could even happen. 

I've become kind of fascinated by the fact that there is canon that not only does a "pleasure planet" exist in the Star Trek universe, but that its native population is apparently governed by a hedony--a hedonistic governing system of some sort. So, the science fiction writer in me went into overdrive and decided I needed to know how this could actually Work, and filled-in some canon gaps, including deciding that the sex workers of Risa were, in fact, part of the governing body. So, I invented what I call the Seven Flowers of Risa-- Rose, Bindweed, Camila, Lily, Lotus, Thistle and Valerian (<--the universal translator's best guess at native flower analogs, of course.) You'll see my character's last name there. His mother is what is known as the Flower of Valerian and (I won't get into it all here, but each house has its own rules for how it elects its leader, it's flower--some houses also have petals, which are like vice-presidents). But, the house of Valerian choses its flower by a planet-wide beauty contest--but then agrees to give this person that position for life. So, his mother is considered the most beautiful person on all of Risa. 

I wrote all this up into a document as though it was a report to Starfleet and here's what I have as a notation about Melek: "Due to the profound availably of advanced contraception, it is unlikely that Lt. Com Valerian’s birth was accidental. Speculation provided by Starfleet sources in the Lotus House [see below] is that it is a House of Valerian tradition to bear mixed-race children whose parentage implies the lengths to which people will travel to be serviced by the Valerian Flower. It has been confirmed by Lt. Com. Valerian himself, as well as through genetic testing, that his paternal heritage is Romulan. Though Starfleet Intelligence believes they have identified several potential candidates as his father among spies and commanders of the Star Empire, Lt Com Valerian is not considered a security risk as the majority of Risans, including those in the Valerian House, are matrilineal and place little to no value on fathers or fatherhood."

This is entirely why I needed to not play a lot of RPGs when I was starting writing. I will spend literal hours on backstories and worldbuilding that no one but me cares about. :-)
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2024-01-08 03:35 pm

Quilting and Such

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Image: TOS Engineering insignia. On the flipside of [personal profile] sabotabby 's gaming quilt

This weekend, I finished up Sabs' quilt--specifically, I made it fully reversible with this insignia on the back side--and packaged it up. It is now winging its way to its new home. Rather than start right away on [personal profile] bcholmes 's quilt, I am finishing up the Avenger-themed one that I think I've showed off here before? I ran out of the comic book fabric before it was even lap length. So I'd  set it aside as I pondered what to do to finish it off.  When Shawn and I were out getting bias tape, BY CHANCE,  at the fabric store in the remnant bin was actual, honest-to-god Avengers fabric. It was not at all similar except in terms of the characters and the fact that comic book characters come in standard, bright primary colors. But, I decided that the price was right (one dollar after our discount) and a sign that was too obvious to ignore. 

I will have to post a picture once I finish the hemming tonight. It's... I mean, thematically, it works? The only thing is that it's kind of feels like I started with manga images and then finished off with the same story's anime, if you know what I mean? As nerdy quilts go, it's a fun one. I am still really pleased with it, generally. 

The other thing I'm doing is working on a second run of revisions. I got my editorial letter from Wizard's Tower and my editor spotted something I hadn't fully considered. I'm playing around with a character who is a solider and there's a kind a redemption arc and so I have to strike that balance of sins that can actually BE forgiven, you know? She had some thoughts and then I had tea and brainstorming with [personal profile] naomikritzer and so now I'm threading that idea throughout. I've already added about 500 words and am only half way through. I should have another draft by Wednesday, I hope. I'd like Mason, who is still home until the 22nd, to be my final reader. He's very good at asking the important plot questions, so if I'm too ham-handed (or, less likely, too subtle) in this pass, he'll let me know.

We briefly got a drifting of snow this afternoon. Just enough to have to sweep off the car before we went off to Shawn's kidney doctor check-in at 1 o'clock today. Today was a day of doctors, etc., for her. She got a temporary crown this morning at the ungodly hour of 7:10 am. However, I managed to get a bunch of errands done at the same time, including finally returning a huge stack of manga that I'd checked out from the library. I still have a decent amount left to read, but I'm pleased to have plowed through a bunch of it, including Boys Run The Riot about a trans boy who has dreams of starting a fashion line. I'd say it's a fun, feel-good read, but it actually triggered me a little? Our hero gets outed without his consent and I woke up dreaming about it several times last night. It hit me in the subconscious, apparently. But, I mean, it's a good manga. Unlike, say, One Piece, it's a complete story in 4 volumes. 

I'm still watching through some Star Trek TOS episodes. I watched "Squire of Gothos" mostly because I had no memory of it. It's one of those all-powerful beings who are actually children playing with us stories and... I mean, it's no dumber than say, "Mudd's Women," which I also recently rewatched. I've been thinking a lot about the various types of scientists on starships and I was reminded in this one that they have a ship's geologist. I don't even think he's the first one? We see another geologist in the terrible transporter accident one, "Enemy Within." I also finished watching all of the Star Trek: The Animated Series because Paramount+ has them. I'm now working my way through some Star Trek: Deep Space Nine until we drop our subscription.

I also picked up another correspondence RPG. This one is supposed to be played via email and, since I had such trouble doing "Stay in Touch" via email with my one friend, I thought we might try this. Wish us luck.

How was your weekend? Read or watch anything of note? 
lydamorehouse: (ticked off Ichigo)
2023-12-12 12:14 pm

Needs Enrichment

Marvel quilt 
Image: 1960s-style Marvel characters on a quilt, interspersed with red, blue, green and brown squares. Some of the colored squares are checked or dotted to imply the stippling done with color and shading in early comic books. 

Least any of you are worried that I was so petulant about the Facebook comment that I have given up on quilting, never fear. I turned around and started this one almost the same day. Here is the nearly finished result. I'm currently waffling about the edging. I think I may want to expand it a bit more, which would require some detail work, but... what else have I got to do? (I am still awaiting copy edits and final comments from Shawn, so, really, I don't have a lot on at the moment.) 

Meanwhile, I continue my postcard project, despite a distinct lack of funds. This will be week... four (?) of random, strange homemade postcards for my recipients. No, I think I unearthed a postcard booklet of Yellowstone postcards a few postcards back, so maybe it's only been a couple of weeks of these. I found an amazing postcard on Redbubble that I'd love to send, but I'm going to have to wait for Christmas money to arrive. My very, very cheap source of postcards dried up sometime ago. I used to be able to order postcards from Deviant Art. But, I think the powers that be figured out that I was going in via an old entryway and have since disabled it. Like, I don't think I was doing anything wrong, I just think that the powers that be discovered that offering postcards like that was was a loss leader and I was buying a f*ck TON through them. Redbubble and Etsy are much wiser about their prices and so, given that I need about 25 of these things once a week or so, they've become a very rare purchasing option for me. 

This week, in the process of moving some chairs around the living room, I uncovered a basket full of odd cards--like birthday greeting cards. For a while, I was pseudo-collecting these at estate sales. Back when I was getting into pen palling, I found it kind of silly/fun to just send out old-fashioned or odd greeting cards along with my letters. Nowadays, I am down to ONE international pen friend, so they languished. 

What I did with the greeting cards was cut them up to 6 x 4 which is the standard postcards size and then used scraps of pretty paper to cover up obvious birthday wishes, etc. The result is a lot of flowers? Odd pictures of birds? I'm not sure how I'm going to spin this one into the story I'm half-telling, but it will be fine. I'm never entirely sure (except in a few rare cases where people have actually reached out now and again to tell me otherwise) that my strange efforts are appreciated, anyway.  

It's mostly a project for me. As Mason once told his Discord: "Ima needs enrichment."

I'm like an octopus in an aquarium, apparently. 

In other news, I am continuing my nightly rewatch of a single original Star Trek episode. I accidentally rewatched "The Enemy Within" last night, and I rather wish I'd skipped that one. I will say, however, that Sulu is quickly becoming a favorite character this time around. He gets a LOT of funny lines, and, no surprise these days, but George Takei has very good comedic timing and is handsome and charming in a way I think I missed the first time through, as I was far more focused on the Big Three: Spock, Kirk, and McCoy. One of you suggested "For the World is Hollow and I Have Touched the Sky," as one I could randomly pick as part of this, and I think that will be tonight's episode. 

I am also using my time to bake cookies for the holidays. Yesterday, I made spritz. Today, I will be making sugar cookie cut outs, a recipe we call "Lizzy's sugar cookies," after Shawn's bestie from Kindergarten, with whom she is still in regular contact (and might still be a bestie?) 
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2023-12-06 12:24 pm

Quilt No More

 The dino quilt is in pieces now and the fabric has been set aside for some other day. I looked at for a long time and just decided that, even if I liked it (and the majority of people who commented on it had positive things to say), I was now going to associate it with a very dumb internet fight that made me feel bad. That's enough to kill the thing. So I did. It may seem petty, but it's actually self-care. 

A weird thing about me: I remember the shows, the conversations, the songs I listened to when I look at a quilt I've made. I can pick up a piece I worked on for months and get a full wave of sensory memories about the things that happened while I was making it. One of the baby quilts I sent to the UK? My strongest memory is working the actual quilt hook (for the first time, I think?) while listening to the podcast Wolf 359 with Mason.

So, I was never going to love that quilt the same way, even if I had been happier with it when I started it.

Alas.

Today is supposed to be "What Did You Read Wednesday" and I have a big pile of TBR manga in the other room (which I need to renew!) I could talk about one of them, which was Cat + Gamer, which was quite cute, but instead I want to talk about my newest evening routine. I've been picking one old Star Trek episode and rewatching it. Last night I watched "Mirror, Mirror," a classic. The night before was "The Turnabout Intruder." 

It's been interesting to watch these again. For me, it's the first time I've seen them in color. The TV I grew up with was black & white, which, no, I did not grow up in the 1950s. My parents were just very late adopters when it came to color television. If I remember correctly, they didn't get a color TV until I had moved out to go to college, so that's after 1985. 

Star Trek is pretty startling in color, I have to say. The colors are so vibrant that a lot of the special effects actually feel like they stand the test of time. I mean, some don't, of course, but a shocking number actually look very good. Like, almost believable. Which, feels counterintuitive? My brain apparently only remembers the very obviously Styrofoam rocks or whatever. But, the transporter looks fine. The planets, at least when the Enterprise first goes into orbit, look good, honestly.

Things I had forgotten include things like, how much time is spent discussing mutiny in "The Turnabout Intruder." I remember it for all the reasons I'm sure most of you do, which is how grossly anti-trans it is, how sexist it is, and how badly Shatner hams up being inhabited by a woman (see point number one). 

In "Mirror, Mirror," I had forgotten how sleezy a captain Kirk is once he returns to our dimension, In the final scenes (actually as the credits start rolling), he OVERTLY hits on an ensign who has been transferred who happens to be the counterpart (at least visually) to the woman who was "the Captain's woman" in the Mirror, Mirror 'verse. Bleh. The episode was decently good up to that point, for all its cheese. 

Tonight I am considering either "Who Mourns for Adonis?" or "For the World is Hollow and I Have Touched the Sky." I am taking recommendations. Do you have a favorite that I should rewatch?
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2023-11-22 02:35 pm

Quilting, Life & Such

Willow on Star Trek Quilt
Image: Willow claiming the Lisa's Star Trek quilt.

Hope you're not allergic to cats, [personal profile] lcohen!  Willow has claimed your quilt.  Also, even though Willow is by no means a smol cat, you can see that it's really not much more than a lap quilt. It does, at least, have a nice fleece backing and so it's extra warm and snuggly.

Anyway, hello, all. I am writing to you in the throes of Thanksgiving prep. The first of our guests are arriving within an hour or two. Since Mason came home yesterday we have been prepping like crazy. Yesterday was the rolling and grilling of the lefse. (No, we are not Norwegian, but we live in Minnesota. Lefse has ended up as part of our holiday staples via osmosis.)  We initially bought a lefse grill with the intention of making crepes on it, but then we were like... WAIT, this also makes lefse, so why not?? For you lefse experts out there, no we don't make it from scratch. We use Aunt Lena's mix. It has fake mashed potatoes. Sneer all you want, the lefse is still hand rolled and comes off fresh from the grill I'm sure yours is better, but we have only so many spoons during the holidays.

Mason is our expert with the lefse stick. So, it was fun to all be in the kitchen yesterday.

Today, Shawn made two pumpkin pies and got the cranberry sauce made. We used to be canned jellied cranberry aficionados, but then Shawn inherited a recipe that involves alcohol and its become a family (and made family) favorite. We have also been making nibbles for around the house for months--cookies of all sorts and almond bark dipped pretzels. 

We do all the cooking for our made family/friends, so Thanksgiving has long been a favorite holiday of ours. 

I'm going to go try to sneak in a nap before people show up, however. Wish me luck!
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2023-09-28 08:36 pm

More Weird RPG Fic

And now for something completely different...

....our Starfleet Vulcan Counselor does couples counselling. And I neglected to previously note that because Li Meru is [personal profile] sabotabby 's character, she helped with the descriptions, dialogue, etc. of this piece. 

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When Sular stood for the opening the door to his office, he did not expect quite so many people requesting ‘couple’s’ therapy simultaneously.

Four.

Read more... )
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2023-08-23 01:40 pm

Confessing the Depths of my Nerdity

 What have I been reading lately?

You want to know? Do you? DO YOU, PUNK?

I have been flipping back and forth between this bad boy:

sta player's handbook
Image: Star Trek Adventures: TTRPG's Player's Guide

And a .pdf copy of Star Trek Adventures: Captain's Log, which is utterly fascinating because it proposes a concept I was unfamiliar with in table top role-playing games: Solo Play. The idea that you can just GM yourself a story. 

In talking it over a bit with [personal profile] tallgeese it sounds like there are a number of ways that people solo play. The book recommends a piece of paper to track some of your random rolls and a whole bunch of other details, etc., but, as tallgeese suggested, a person could just sort of read through the scenarios that are randomly rolled and let it be a full theater of the mind, if you will--a story that plays out in your head, just for you. Meanwhile, I told him that I could see .myself actually telling myself the story, out loud, with character voices, because I'm like that. It also sounds from the forums that tallgeese is on that a number of people will probably be using Captain's Log to generate fictional work of some form or another, not unlike my Sular stuff. 

Which is technically solo play, I suppose? (As is all writing) Although in that case I am drawing on characters and events generated by others in our gaming sessions, as a group. I see those little ficlets as extensions of the game that the six of us are playing.

If I sound at all skeptical or disapproving, I am decidedly NOT. I am a fan of play. I am the biggest fan of play of any kind. I think more adults should just write themselves into imaginary stories however they want to--daydreaming, playing out loud by themselves or with friends, writing things down, telling stories to people, doing scripted or improv theater, or following complex rules and rolling dice. It's all good. If I'm feeling anything about it, it's that I'm surprised and pleased that solo play is becoming an acceptable thing.

If nothing else, I now have an excuse when people look at me funny at the bus stop when I'm acting out scenes. I can just say, "Oh, sorry! Just doing a little solo RPG!" 

(I mean, that was always true? It just now has a name.)
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2023-08-17 07:24 pm

Vulcan Feelings

Under the cut is a very short fic based on my Star Trek Adventures (TTRP) game, which I've already talked about a lot here (and we all know that campaign stories are boring.)  

Vulcans ABSOLUTELY NOT having feelings in a counselling session )


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2023-07-11 04:13 pm

Wandering the Corridors with a Mission

Another Star Trek Adventure's: RPG fic to scroll past.

I've explained before that our game runs a LOT of NPCs (non-player characters) as though they are full players. I really like this approach with a starship, because it feels more like an episode, where you might wander away from the main folks and, say, hang out with Chekov or Sulu. Or, you know, get to meet the ship's historian...

One of our players, [personal profile] bcholmes is especially good at running random characters that we need on an away team and imbuing them with That One Trait that makes them perfectly memorable. In the fic below the cut, I must give her all the credit creating our Vulcan Sociologist, Shoval, who is obsessed with spreadsheets. BC is also our captain, so in a way this fic is my NPC interacting with all of her creations.

None of these characters appear in any of the zillion Star Trek shows. But, if you've been reading these since I first started posting them, this is a return to our Vulcan Counselor, Sular.

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my weird little fic )

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2023-06-26 12:36 pm

So Many Nerdy Things, One Quilt

 Star Trek Queer Gaming Quilt
Image: Star Trek Queer Gaming Quilt pinned and ready to be quilted.

As I have discussed previously on this blog, I am in a gaming group that plays Star Trek Adventures Tabletop RPG. We are the very queer players and characters on the USS Alan Turing. This is the pieced quilt that I am making for our gamemaster, [personal profile] tallgeese . All that is left to do is the actual quilting part and the hemming of the edges. I am super-pleased with how this one looks.

For any of my new readers, I started quilting right before the pandemic hit as a thing to be doing while hanging out with a friend who is suffering dementia. I kept it up during the isolation part of the pandemic as "apocalypse crafting" and a way to settle my jangled nerves. After making all the quilts my family and I could ever want or need, I've started to treat quilting like zucchini farming--which is to say, I spring them on unsuspecting friends and family. (I have not yet dropped a quilt into someone's open car window or randomly left them on neighbor's doorsteps, BUT THAT DAY MAY BE COMING.) I make no pretense that the work I do is skilled. It just makes me happy to use fun fabrics and sew. I do these all by hand (even the quilting, which I do with a quilting hoop). I'm learning as I go in most cases. So, there are mistakes. I don't sweat them. This is all for fun.

fabric close-up
Image: fabric close up of the twenty-sided dice in rainbow colors wrapped in a banner that says, "Roll with Pride."

This is my second gaming-themed quilt, the first being a "roll with trans pride" quilt I made for my god daughter, Naomi. Previous to that, I'd made two baby quilts for her sister (and shipped them off to the UK!) I made an Easter quilt for someone in my D&D group, cat quilt for [personal profile] naomikritzerand several deep sea themed quilts for internet and far-away friends (including one octopus + sheep quilt for my friend Eleanor, who loves both). My only caveat with these quilts is that the recipient do with them WHATEVER THE HELL THEY LIKE. If they want to donate them to charity, use them as doggie beds, or tear them up for their component parts that's also fine, since, like a bloated late-summer zucchini in Minnesota--they might be nice, but they were unasked for. 

I have put out a couple of calls on Facebook when I've had some fun fabrics that I thought someone might appreciate, so if you actually want one of these zucchini quilt gifts, let me know (or check-in periodically on Facebook.) If you're a friend of mine of any length of time (and I have your mailing address), just wait. The zucchini will eventually just SHOW UP. 

close-up of progressive triangle
Image: Close-up of the progressive triangle on rainbow flag. Bonus close-up of planets.
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2023-04-30 05:31 pm
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Now For a Different Kind of Fic..

I'm pretty sure that I will lose my readership in droves, but it occurs to me that I have been unfair to my Star Trek: The RPG group. I've posted a bit about them from time to time, but mostly in general.  I've never posted the fic that I've written for that group. So, I thought I'd start.

Lo, a new icon for you to ignore! If you see the Star Trek logo and don't want to read RPG fic, please skip!

About us: we started playing together (according to the session logs) on January 19, 2019.

So, that's been a long time. Especially since we've always played online via video conferencing, so we played throughout the isolation of the pandemic without a hiatus.

We only play once a month, so it's not quite as intensive as it might seem. It has been, however, one of my favorite groups. We are all crew members of the USS Alan Turing, NCC-74659 an Intrepid Class scientific and survey operations starship currently deployed in the Shackleton Expanse. We are playing in the post-Dominion War era of the Trekverse (so, think: Star Trek: Deep Space Nine-ish).

When we started, I was playing a supremely chatty Bolian Chief Science Officer named Ardon, who, despite coming from a polyamorous culture, secretly longed to be monogamous. Of course, he ended up in a threesome with the Cardassian ambassador and the ship's counselor, until eventually he jumped ship (literally, he went AWOL) for what he imagined to be his one true love, a Romulan space marine. He has not been heard from since.(Maybe. There may have been messages sent from the Romulan Star Empire that appear to have information only Ardon would know, but that mystery is still in play.)

I replaced myself in the role of Chief Science Officer, with a human named Rochester "Ro" LeRoux who was raised on Andor, as part of a Starfleet military base. I tend to like to play characters who go against type. So, Ro managed to become a Science Officer despite only having expertise in "soft" sciences. Previous to the Dominion war, Ro served as a a ship's historian... and then later taught watercolor at Academy. (I blame the actual play mechanics here. When I discovered I could have expertise in something inane like watercolor, I was like, "YES, this is the skill we will most need while fending off Orion slavers in an alternate universe!) When war could no longer spare any of its soldiers, Ro reluctantly entered the battlefield only to accidentally distinguish himself and become a lieutenant commander. His main value is: do whatever is necessary to get to retirement.

Ro, when I picture him in his head, looks and acts a bit like Ian McKellen at his most flamboyant.

Ro is, by chance, one of the few humans on the bridge/senior staff of the Turing. Our captain, Ayla Taryn, is, of all things, a Deltan. Our first officer is Commander Delara, a Betazoid who grew up on Vulcan. The Chief Engineer is the incomparable Li Meru, a Bajoran. Our Chief Medical Officer is a Napean named Eliva.

Our group is interesting because we all pick up various NPCs and play them as player characters. I think this has something to do with the fact that when you're playing on a ship, you need more than six people to do all the things. Why not give the helmsman some personality? It feels much more like it's part of the Trek franchise when everyone has a strong and unique personality/backstory.

So, for instance, I also created the replacement ship's counselor who left after the disaster with Ardon. He's technically an NPC, but the new counselor also fits my mold of playing against type: a Vulcan psychologist, Sular. Like all my characters, Sular has a secret. He was raised on Vulcan, but among a tribe of dessert nomads, who practice V'tosh ka'tur (think: Vulcan raised by an emotion cult.) He initially rejected their lifestyle and submitted to Kolinahr (the purge of emotions) in order to join the Vulcan Science Academy and pursue a life among the stars as a communications officer. But, after a tragedy wherein most of the crew of his previous ship was lost, including a special person he failed to express his love to, he has been experimenting with a return to the practices of his youth.

Anyway, you don't need to remember any of these people in order to enjoy what I'm about to post, except Ro and Sular (who should be obvious in context, or I have failed being a writer.)

This is actually an older piece that sets the stage for a piece I started today based on last night's game (which I hope to post in a couple days, depending). I ended up feeling really crummy today, however, and didn't finish it. My stomach has been a little urpy, my nose runny, and my body achy. I've tested for COVID, and so far, I seem to just have picked up some other random bug. My body is NOT used to this whole being sick thing anymore, however, and so, even though I had a bunch of stuff I wanted to be doing today, including writing the fic, I face-planted and spent most of the day utterly passed out.

Without further ado, I offer this ridiculous fic, which is basically me asking the question: How would a Vulcan be a Ship's counselor?? Could they possibly be any good??

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The ship’s counselor was young. 
 
Well, Ro mused, everyone seemed so young to him these days, and, really, that was not the most surprising thing about the person sitting seiza on the floor across from him. 

Sular, the person whose sole job it was to look after the emotional health of the crew, was a Vulcan.

He wouldn’t have this job if he wasn’t good at it, Ro reminded himself as he tried to close his eyes and join Sular in meditation. But, dealing with people’s emotions all day, every day? A Vulcan? It seemed… well, illogical.

Ro wouldn’t even think about it twice, but he needed serious help. His head still rang after the encounter with that malevolent presence on The House of B’Ling. In fact, he kept having the strangest physical sensations in the aftermath. His stomach suddenly lurched at the memory. HIs head spun. Ro thought he might throw up all over this very lovely Vulcan meditation rug in front of him.

In an effort to calm his wildly beating heart, Ro let out a long breath and put a hand on his chest. His hand shook; his breath came out ragged and uneven.

This was not going well.

“You seem to be having trouble concentrating,” Sular said, his flat affect and emotionless voice surprisingly comforting to Ro’s jangled mind. 

Perhaps there was some logic to a Vulcan counselor, after all. It didn’t hurt that this young man was handsome in that way so many Vulcan men were, all angles and planes.

Sular arched a finely sculpted eyebrow. His hands rested flatly against his thighs. “I suggested mediation because quiet contemplation often helps heal a mind that has been forcefully invaded. Perhaps you have been more severely damaged than I initially assessed. Would prefer to talk instead?”

Ro wasn’t sure reliving the encounter would make him feel any better. He shivered at the mere suggestion that he discuss that vile Thing that had pressed itself into his mind. His stomach dropped again and he felt dizzy. Oh gods, what did he even eat today? Klingon bloodwine and sushi? This was going to be gross!

As Ro struggled to keep the contents of his stomach to himself, Sular pulled himself upright in a very fluid motion. The counselor had started to turn away towards a set of scoop chairs, when he noticed Ro’s distress.  

With the ease of youth, he crouched back down beside Ro. 

Peering deeply into Ro’s eyes, Sular appeared obviously concerned, despite his lack of expression. Dark eyebrows knit together briefly. ““Lieutenant Commander LeRoux, are you quite all right?”

Ro gripped his stomach which had begun to cramp. “It’s deeply disconcerting that something that touched my mind can hurt my body. It feels like it shouldn’t be possible. ‘Psychic Damage,’ it sounds… ridiculous.”

“Psychic damage is a known phenomenon.” Sular assured him as he reached a hand out to help him up. “I will make tea.”

Tea sounded amazing. Ro  tried to smile at this delightful young man, but his smile faltered.  He was, however, comforted by the strength in the cool, firm grip that lifted him easily to his feet. Upright, Ro’s sense of his own center of gravity returned. He felt more grounded. Despite that, he found didn’t want to let go of that steadying hand. He clutched to Sular as if he were an actual, physical lifeline.

Sular seemed to accept Ro’s reluctance to release his hand without any awkwardness or stiffness. He did not pull away or let go until he was certain that Ro was comfortably settled in the chair. Surprisingly, Sular knelt again beside him, letting his hand rest on Ro’s arm, until Ro focused enough to look him directly in the eye. 

Such lovely gray eyes,too-- like a gathering storm at sea. 

Sular nodded as if something had been decided. Finally letting go, he stood up. “Rest here. Tea will be only a moment.”

Ro sat in the surprisingly comfortable chair, focused on breathing evenly, and looked around. 

The counselor’s office was full of the clean lines of the Zen aesthetic that Ro had come to associate with Vulcans, with a few notable exceptions. There seemed to be a large framed replica of a papyrus scrap that read in Greek: To Eros: You burn me. A poem attributed to Sappho, an ancient human. 

“You burn me?” Ro repeated, a little shocked. “Fiery passion? An ancient sex god? Isn’t that… a lot for a Vulcan?”

Sular had requested a thermos of boiling water from the replicator, but otherwise seemed to be making tea by hand at a nearby counter. Over his shoulder, he asked, “Are you under the impression that Vulcans do not experience intense emotions?”

Ro blinked. “Yes? I mean, kind of?”

“It is understandable that it appears that way. However,” Sular said, handing Ro a steaming mug of something that smelled faintly of hibiscus and beremont, “You are incorrect. Vulcans have struggled with great emotion since the time of Surak.”

Ro couldn’t help the little chuckle that escaped his lips, “Really? Are you suggesting that right now, underneath that mask of cool composure you’re a hot, burning mess of uncontrolled passion and emotions?”

“Not uncontrolled,” Sular said, sitting down primly. “But yes.”

Was that sexy? It was kind of sexy.

Not a very professional thought. Well, at least he wasn’t thinking about mind monsters, he supposed. Perhaps he was feeling a little better already? Holding a hand out, Ro noticed it still shook. He let it fall to his lap with a sigh. At least he could manage a sip of tea, if he used both hands to steady the cup. Vulcan tea, if this was what this was, was quite good: sharply bitter, but with an undertone of a flora sweetness. “Shouldn’t we be talking about me?”

“Only if you like.” Sular settled back against the back of his chair, and crossed his legs lightly, loosely. This one was far more…languid than a lot of the stiff Vulcans Ro had known.. 

“But, don’t I need to process my trauma or whatever?”

“It is not strictly necessary. Often, when a person has experienced this particular kind of psychic damage all that is required to overcome it is rest. Having a pleasant chat is a form of mental rest. At least it can be, for some.”

Everything about this counselor was a lovely surprise, Ro decided. “So, you’re a counselor?” Ro ventured around a sip of tea.

The eyebrow quirk let Ro know he’d asked a rather stupid and obvious question. “I am.” 

“What I mean is… the family proud?”

“You may be surprised to learn that my immediate family was quite pleased by my change in career.”

“Change?”

“When I joined StarFleet I was a communications officer.”

Clearly a story there, also clearly off-limits, Ro decided. Well, there were such things as professional boundaries Ro supposed. Not having much else to say, they sat in companionable silence for several long minutes, sipping tea. 

Ro could feel his heart rate slowing. 

Sular had piped some kind of soft music into his office. It seemed to be an instrumental version of an Andorian folk song. Bits of the original kept flitting through Ro’s mind. Some version of that grand old ballad of a cleverly ruthless Imperial guard. It was normally quite a bit more rousing when sung at the local tavern. The chorus was something akin to ‘Once more into the breach, you wild ice mountain warriors!’ Ro used to dream of being one of those when he was small.

Mmmm, that was part of the problem, wasn’t it?

After Sular had filled Ro’s teacup for a second time, Ro confessed, “There is one thing I feel guilty about. I was… mean to Roloo.”

“Can you further define what you are expressing by the word ‘mean’ ?” Sular asked. “The word you have chosen does not appear to align with any action that would result in guilt.”

Ro rolled his eyes a bit and let out a sigh, “That’s because I was being coy. I didn’t actually want to say what happened, that I was verbally abusive. I told the wee little thing that I’d ‘box him about the ears.’”.

Resting his tea cup in the saucer on his lap, Sular said, “I see.”

Even though Sular’s expression had not changed, Ro swore he felt waves of disapproval coming from those ridiculously gorgeous gray eyes. “Look, don’t judge. My mind had just been invaded by something so awful that it caused actual, physical harm!  I thought I was safeguarding my ability to reason by refusing the hypo from Eliva, but I was wrong. I wasn’t thinking straight.”

“Your reaction was not outside of the typical response to such stress,” Sular said with such calm certainty that Ro almost believed him. “You did not actually harm the creature, correct?”

“I guess,” Ro said. “But, who knows what kind of abuse he suffered at B’Ling’s hands? I didn’t need to add to it.”

Sular took a moment to set his empty cup and saucer on the small table between them. He leaned forward and steepled his fingers. He tapped his fingers against his chiseled chin. “Why are you so certain that what you did harmed this person?”

Ro laughed. “Boxing Roloo’s ears would be terrible! It’d be like kicking a puppy.You haven’t seen him. He's tiny. Adorable. Like a weirdly attractive weasel. ”

That last bit made Sular pause to consider for a moment. Apparently, after erasing that mental image with an almost imperceptible frown, he continued, “Yet, if I read the reports correctly, he quite mercilessly infected his former shipmates with any number of pathogens that had been stored in The House of B’Ling’s medical bay. Viruses, I must point out, which do not distinguish between the slaver or the slave. He infected everyone on that second galleon.”

Ro felt his stomach tighten a bit at that. It was actually somewhat difficult for Ro to reconcile Roloo’s cuteness to both his brilliance and his capability for violence. “I suppose that’s true.”

“There is no supposition. It is irrefutable,” Sular said. He stood up and, after pressing some hidden button on the otherwise blank wall, produced a plate of treats. “Cookie? Or do you use the term biscuit?”

“I only say ‘biscuit’ if I’m being pretentious,” Ro admitted with a smile.

“Understood,” he said impassionately, but there was a ghost of a smile on Sular’s lips for a moment as he set the plate on the table. After helping himself to a cookie, Sular returned to his own seat. “If I may confess a frivolous consideration, I have long wondered how the Universal Translator approaches dialects, particularly those of English, but really, of anywhere. If one is raised with the American English spoken in the Southern United States, does the Universal Translator add the occasional ‘y’all’ or other idioms or vocal tics?”

Ro laughed and mimed the computer’s voice, “Red Alert, y’all! Red Alert!”

“Just so.”

Ro considered this for a moment as he tasted the cookie. Mmmm, was that cardamom? “I don’t know, but now I kind of hope so.”

“Indeed. Myself, as well.”

Charming. The young Vulcan was simply charming. Ro smiled to himself, enjoying the cookie. He reached for a second.

“There is one question I feel I must ask, Lieutenant Commander--”

“Ro, everyone calls me Ro.”

“Very well, Ro. Is there any part of your expression of guilt that is related to a concern that aggression from you might make you a target for extra scrutiny by Star Fleet’s Judge Advocate General?”

“You mean my ‘jailor’?” When Sular said nothing to that, Ro reached for a third cookie. What did they call it? Stress eating?  After taking several bites, he said, “I see you’ve read my jacket.”

“It was only logical. I must be acquainted with the full context of your military career in order to--”

Ro waved off the rest of Sular’s excuses. “It’s no secret that I’m an extra-legal human. Starfleet has literally been monitoring me since my birth. But, rest assured the one and only augmentation that I have is a so-called ‘superhuman’ ability to withstand cold temperatures.”  Ro paused because this statement wasn’t strictly true. He had also scored much higher than expected in reason and intelligence, but Starfleet had decided, in its wisdom, that those numbers fell within the ‘normal’ range of what could be expected from a relatively bright human being. He cleared his throat and went on, “Extreme temperature survival is the augmentation that the Denobulan doctor performed on me so that I might, in my infancy, survive along with my mother after her shuttle crashed during a rescue mission--which she would never have gone on so pregnant had there been anyone nearby, and time being of an essence.”

“It’s a noble story.” Sular agreed.

“But?”

“There is no ‘but,’” Sular said simply. “I hold no stake or vested interest in your status as an illegal human.”

“Extra legal,” Ro corrected. If he’d been deemed illegal, he’d have lived his life in prison. Or exiled on some hostile planet. Or put on ice. Or whatever Starfleet did with Augments these days.

“Extra legal,” Sular nodded in an apology. “My concern is as the ship’s counselor. It is possible that carrying the burden of Starfleet’s fear regarding augmented humans affects your ability to be aggressive and decisive when needed in command situations. When reviewing your military jacket, I noted that you spent nearly two decades teaching….” He seemed to either be searching for the subject matter or doing a Vulcan version of sheer and utter disbelief, “... watercolor. You hold expertise in xenobiology, human medicine, and history. Yet, you spent much of the Dominion War… painting.”

Ro couldn’t help the small smile when he said, “You sound like you disapprove, Counselor Sular.”

Both eyebrows went up briefly. “It is simply illogical that you would waste such prodigious talent teaching watercolor when there was a war to be won.”

Letting out a little sigh, Ro slumped back the chair. “You’re all but accusing me of being a coward. Aren’t you the least bit worried about reinjuring me, psychically-speaking?”

“Not in the least,” Sular said. “I have already determined that sufficient time has passed since your troubling encounter. In anticipation of this session, I reviewed all the cases of this kind of psychic damage in the past twenty years.  No singular, short time exposure has needed more than distance and twenty minutes to make a full and complete recovery.”

“I could be an outlier,” Ro insisted grumpily.

“You most certainly are, Lieutenant Commander Ro, but not for that reason,” Sular said with the tiniest of smirks. “You are avoiding the question.”

“What do you want me to say? That I’m selfish? That my fear of spending the rest of what remained of my life in prison was greater than my sense of patriotic duty to StarFleet… to, in fact, all the living beings of the United Federation of Planets suffering during the war? As it happens, I came to that very conclusion myself before the end of the Dominion War and I left my husband and children behind to re-enter active service as a medic in the trenches, deep, deep in space, so far away from my family, with retirement just on the horizon.”

Ro let out a long frustrated breath.

“The work was horrible,” he continued. “It was frightening to be under fire, day in and day out, but what scared me the most was just how much I enjoyed it. How good I was at it. How easily I rose in the ranks. How natural it felt to be in command, to fight, to lead, to advance on an enemy, to conquer.” Ro took a deep breath. “That, dear Counselor Sular, is why I feel guilty over snapping at an oddly attractive weasel man.”

Sular made a little noise of… surprise? Amusement? It was gone so quickly, Ro could hardly believe he’d heard it. “Indeed. That seems like a notable place to end our first session.”
 
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It was only hours later, when his PADD informed him of a scheduled appointment, that Ro realized that Sular had said “first session,” as if he intended that this one was just the first of many….
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2022-12-07 09:25 am

Spam, Painting, and Life

 Like many of you, I imagine, I've been suddenly getting a bunch of spam on my AO3 fics. It only finally occurred to me yesterday to ask someone more in the know and check their Twitter account to find out what I could do about it, besides hitting "spam" on each of the comments individually. I have over 400 fics on AO3, so the "change all" did not work for me.  I spent several minutes last night doing small batches of "registered users only" comments. 

Hopefully, that will help.

In other news, work on the kitchen continues. 

Lyda with a power tool and crazed expression
Image: Lyda with a power tool and a crazed expression.

Yesterday, however, I had a break from the physical labor of it all because Shawn had her long-awaited cardiologist appointment to see if someone could figure out what the heck has been going on with her fluctuating blood pressure/strange heartbeats. Right now the doc is speculating that it is either pvc tachycardia or pac (which Google seems to think is the same thing, different name)? But, no one seemed super-duper worried at the moment, which has de-stressed Shawn a lot--though, I'm not particularly any less stressed, since no one has offered an explanation of why this might have suddenly started.

HOWEVER, Shawn got to come home with a heart monitor, which she gets to wear for two weeks so that they can get a good picture of what her heart does all day. They gave her a burner phone that is installed with a single app that is transmitting the information to the cyborg mothership, I think? I dunno, I missed the details of that, but the point is, if something goes awry, they will know and call. 

Other than that, life proceeds apace. 

I am hoping to be finished with this revitalization kitchen project by this weekend. This weekend is kind of the deadline because Mason is home from university on Tuesday next already, and we have a tree that is currently barren of all decorations. Shawn and I would really like to trim the tree before Mason gets here. I mean, if either of us had any energy left after dinner, we could probably do it any night this week, but, yeah, no... that has not been happening.

In other news, my Star Trek gaming group is celebrating year FOUR of its on-going mission. It's hard to believe, but I love that group so hard, it's not even funny. (I am reminded that I should write some super-meta fan fic that one of the characters will write of a fictional TV show that is often referenced in our campaign: "My Space Love.") And tonight? My poor beleaguered elf barbarian is going to discover that he's even more fey than he thought he was... we are leveling up, and I've decided to go with the Wild Magic barbarian sub-class, which basically involves him leaking Fey Wild magic while raging... which should wonderfully complicate everything for everyone in the party (the GM is on board, never fear. I would never make a choice like this without checking in that it goes along with any planned story elements.) 

Anyway, I apologize for my days of silence. I think I should pre-plan that my New Year's resolution should be to be better about journaling. 
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2021-12-16 09:48 am

Okay, So... Here We Are

A view down a foggy sidewalk in Saint Paul, MN

The picture above is from a very short walk that Shawn and I went on yesterday morning when it was 40 F / 4 C and all the snow was evaporating into a heavy fog. Until yesterday, we'd had a lovely blanket of twelve plus inches of snow (approximately 30 cm). It's snowing right now, but last night's thunderstorm and rain was very... unnerving.

I've heard thunder in December before, but usually during a snow storm. I can't remember ever experiencing a tornado warning in December before, however. That was vey weird.

Other than our little stroll through the fancier neighborhoods in Saint Paul, Shawn and I also had planned a short trip out in "the weather" to drop by the Roseville library to pick up the books that I'd requested that had come in. I'm laying in stores for the upcoming winter break. Once Mason is home from college, our big plan is to snuggle in and have a week or so of "pajama days" where all we do is snuggle under blankets and read. I have a novel to write, as well, but I'm hopeless behind on that, honestly. I've been working on it, but not fast enough to make my end of the year deadline, alas. I hope to do some writing, but for whatever reason the words have been coming out at a trickle rather than a flood. It happens some times. This, too, shall pass. I had writers' group last night, so I will do some revision today. That often leads to forward-writing, so fingers crossed for me.

However, I suspect that I'm in one of my "intake" phases as a writer. I've been reading a lot and consuming a lot of TV/movies. Shawn and I finally watched both Black Widow and Shang-Chi and the Legend of the Ten Rings last weekend. I have to say that I loved them both, much to my surprise. Next up for us in the MCU is the new Hawkeye mini-series. I feel especially psyched about Hawkeye because I was a fan of the Matt Fraction comic books on which they are very clearly based. (Pizza dog!)

In non-fannish news, she and I also finished watching the latest season of Shetland

As I also mentioned in a previous post, I've been ripping through as much Star Trek content as I can because Shawn got us one of those free month deals to Paramount +. I watched all of the seasons of Star Trek: Lower Decks. I  am now most of the way through Star Trek: Picard's first season, which I initially found to be slow moving but once they reached small spoiler ) I was all in. Given what my fan friends had said about this series, I did not expect to be as invested in Picard as I am. 

I may take a break before starting the second season of Picard, however, as [personal profile] tallgeese recommended the new animated series, Star Trek: Prodigy, and I'd like to dip my toes into that before everything evaporates at the end of the month. I'm also two season behind Star Trek: Discovery, but that's lower on my list of priorities. (And, I'll be honest, for me, the series flattened out after the death of spoiler ). I loved everything about him. He is who I would be in the Star Trek universe, if not a Romulan spy.)

I also ripped through the first volume of a manga called Zom 101: The Bucket List of the Dead, about a salaryman who was stuck in a job so awful that he's actually elated when the end of the world comes because he's finally free to do the stuff he's always wanted, like, have the time to clean his apartment.... (seriously.) The first volume rides high on this schtick, which I enjoyed, but I'm unsure how well that running joke will be able to sustain the story, so I mean, this is not necessarily a ringing endorsement. Plus, it's ecchi? So for those of you who know what that means, you know what that means. (Lots of unnecessary/gratuitous naked boobies. And maybe one dick? But, of course the official English-language version censored THAT, and not the boobs.)
 
Anyway, it looks like the snow has already stopped, alas. We only got a dusting, but I will pray for a bit more so that we can have a white Christmas for those who celebrate. For us, no matter what's on the ground, the days will get longer, so Winter Solstice is never in danger in it's main functionality if there is no snow. If the days no longer lengthen after Winter Solstice, we have a bigger problem than even climate change.

I hope you all are doing well out there, wherever you are.
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2021-12-13 10:22 am

Cookies and Complaints

Cookies for the holidays 
Image: holiday cookies

I did manage to get some baking done this weekend, but the chocolate mint cookies were ruined by my missing the baking soda. I mean, they're edible? They're just not very chewy. More like a brownie cake. I am going to try again, since they're my favorites of the season. 

Otherwise, I suppose I should talk about the snow. We definitely got some. Saint Paul was very weird in that different neighborhoods had wildly different accumulation, but I would guesstimate us somewhere in between the most in the eastern suburbs (21 inches/53 cm) and the official count at the airport (12 inches/ 30.4 cm). Probably 10 (25.5 cm) inches here?  It was definitely boot weather, and it was taller than my calf-high boots. 

Saint Paul did its usual job of plowing, which is to say right down the middle. To be fair, while a bunch of my neighbors were out moving cars to the night-plow side of the street in the morning many others did not. Shawn and I have taken it upon ourselves to print out and deliver fliers that explain St. Paul's rules of a snow emergency, AND I spent a good portion of my morning hand-shoveling out spots so that all the neighbors could switch sides (because that's the other problem, of course, if the plow comes through, which it had, and makes giant drifts around cars, people can't park in the drifts.) For the first time ever on Saturday, I was not the loan weirdo. Once I explained what I was doing, a number of neighbors actually also pitched in. We nearly cleared the night-plow side.... of course my side of the street is day-plow and... a bunch of neighbors never moved. So, on Sunday I cleared a bunch more snow off the street, this time, by myself, with my hand shovel. 

Saint Paul ought to pay me for this service. 

I tell myself it's my winter workout. Plus, despite everything, I still take a certain amount of altruistic pleasure in making things nice for other people. 

And, I say "despite everything," because this morning when I went out to put the recycling in the bin, I discovered one of my neighbors had dumped an entire mattress and box frame on my property, as garbage. What the actual.  So, I hauled these things to the abandoned lot area and dumped them there, because I'll be damned if I get fined for someone else's garbage. Not only does this make me feel absolutely pooped on by the very neighbors I spent my free time Saturday and Sunday helping out, but also continues to fan the flames of my hatred of the Saint Paul City Council for having sold us out to the highest garbage bidder. Long story, but suffice to say, because it's really hard to get decent garbage service and we are all constricted to the same plan, no one has a good place to dump things like mattresses. Shawn told me this morning when I explained what happened, that this might not have been one of our own neighbors as people are reporting getting entire truckloads of garbage dumped into the middle of alleys because the service won't pick certain items up. 

Argh. 

I will say in all honesty that one of the things that the pandemic has truly damaged for me is my hope for humanity. Like, I want to still imagine that people will choose good, but I am constantly and continually bombarded by the clear message that they don't. This has been weirdly underscored for me by watching Star Trek. Shawn got us two months on Paramount +, so I've been catching up on a lot of things I never saw, like Star Trek: Lower Decks. There was a scene in the last episode of season two (I think) of Lower Decks where everyone had to work together to get a thing done, and I thought, "This is clearly fantasy" because not only did they manage it all in time, but no one complained. I mean, to be fair, the universe of Star Trek takes place in a military stratocracy, so your choice is follow orders or go to the brig/a penal colony, but still. I swear if America were a ship in the fleet, we would all already be dead because no one would ever think doing something for the good of others was ever worth doing.

And yet, I keep at it. 

In fact, just today, I wrote a glowing recommendation for one of my former Loft students to an MFA program. So, I may sound kind of hopeless, but I'm really not. It's just that sometimes I despair, you know? I do think this is why I write, read, and role-play in science fiction. I can continue to imagine the future as a better place, at least in my own mind.